I feel uneasy. It’s weird enough that the new place seemed a beauty, still, I didn’t like what I saw that it got me digging deep into a decluttering journey.

Looks like all the stuff, staring back at me.

My Darlings, just everything back then, was a heavy vibe daily.

Trigger that Lingers

It goes on for several days, then months. The uneasiness had me thinking, an ongoing occurrence until a video shared online as I spent my morning coffee with infinity scrolling got my attention.

At first, I thought it was a clip of one of those reality shows. Understanding its narrative hooked me and has had me searching more.

It was Marie Kondo’s TV series and KonMari tidying-up method.

“Keep only what sparks joy’, her motto completely hit and stuck in my head until I went to bed.

Must do what you have to do. I’m pumped. I’m doing it.

Decluttering Journey Begins

As feisty as the way I walked out from my 6+ years marriage that turned sour, letting go of the things connected to it is surely easy-peasy. 

So what I thought at first, well, it is not. 

It was like opening a Pandora’s box filled with emotions. 

I lost count of how many times I’ve paused completely feeling overwhelmed. I was facing the pile of clothes worn when I was still with that habitual liar, emotionally abusive, and disloyal past person. 

The scenario in my head is that I’m a phoenix, lit and burned it all to ashes. 

Looking back now, I can’t help but laugh.

My mind and heart played ping-pong and seemed to have developed a sense of humor. 

Momentum Build-Up

I paused but didn’t stop.

After my early afternoon jog, I bought a roll of garbage bags. A plan built up in my head that I have to execute.

Firstly created, three piles – DONATE, KEEP, and SELL.

Follow with the final bonus pile called TRASH.

At that moment, 90% of my things (e.g., clothes, accessories, photos, etc.) were removed from my sight and space.

The factual traumatic events sank in, I don’t want to see those ever again.

Convinced to embrace the decluttering journey – I know it’s one of the right things I did for myself aside from the truest best part: Walking Away.

This goes years back, 2 months post-Covid pandemic hit the earth.

Root Conclusion of my decluttering journey

Think of it, hitting rock bottom to be fully awakened going up.

To declutter is no different from detox. Anything that has a bad effect and does not contribute to overall growth, this time of life, I consider a toxin and has to be cut ties with.

I am fully committed to only keeping what sparks joy in my heart – be at it with things, places, people, or situations.

I felt more lighter as the days passed by. Bad vibes saying its goodbyes. 💜

My cut-off game is getting stronger, improving at it, and fearlessly acknowledging the truth in every process.

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It was a continuous learning journey that had me deal with and make peace with my shadow self, too.

I am better off without those, without him, and without all that connects. Their removal from my path is predestined.

Gladly, I listened to my intuition.

With a face known as transparent in expressions, I surely won’t be able to keep up being happy that is only a facade display, purely an illusion. 💋